Sunday, August 21, 2011

"Tell the ones that need to know, we are headed north."

Music has a funny way of saying things I've been trying to formulate in my head. As I head off to Pittsburgh to begin life as a university student, the Avett Brothers' song "I and Love and You" pops into my head. In fact, the title of this post is a line of lyrics from that very song. The lulling, evocative beauty in the chord strains and vocals in tandem with the compelling lyrics capture the excitement, yet nervousness, of moving away. Of starting a new life. Of finding new people and new places that will be the recipients of your time and energy, tears and laughter, stress and care.

It didn't hit me until today that I was actually leaving.
Tomorrow.
Er... today, technically, since it's now past midnight (I should probably get to sleep).

As I strolled aimlessly around the second story of my house after locking my suitcases (completely packed, at last!), a poem popped into my head. "The Walrus and The Carpenter" is one of Lewis Carroll's most well known pieces, revered by children and adults, alike. I feel that its popularity has something to do with how versatile the story is (similar to the versatility of my favorite story of all time, Peter Pan. But I digress...). The tale of the Walrus and the Carpenter can be a silly children's piece, purely for entertainment. It can also be something much more, though. The poem can be a metaphor for life, and leaving one life to start a new one, and finding that there are lots of bumps and humps and gligglyglumps in this new life that you're trying to set for yourself. It is a warning to not be too naive. It is a reminder to not take things for granted. It is a bundle of many more things I could think of if I weren't so tired.

And so, as I shut down the computer for the night, here is Lewis Carroll's The Walrus and The Carpenter:

The Walrus and The Carpenter

Lewis Carroll

(from Through the Looking-Glass and What Alice Found There, 1872)

The sun was shining on the sea,
Shining with all his might:
He did his very best to make
The billows smooth and bright--
And this was odd, because it was
The middle of the night.



The moon was shining sulkily,
Because she thought the sun
Had got no business to be there
After the day was done--
"It's very rude of him," she said,
"To come and spoil the fun!"

The sea was wet as wet could be,
The sands were dry as dry.
You could not see a cloud, because
No cloud was in the sky:
No birds were flying overhead--
There were no birds to fly.



The Walrus and the Carpenter
Were walking close at hand;
They wept like anything to see
Such quantities of sand:
"If this were only cleared away,"
They said, "it would be grand!"



"If seven maids with seven mops
Swept it for half a year.
Do you suppose," the Walrus said,
"That they could get it clear?"
"I doubt it," said the Carpenter,
And shed a bitter tear.



"O Oysters, come and walk with us!"
The Walrus did beseech.
"A pleasant walk, a pleasant talk,
Along the briny beach:
We cannot do with more than four,
To give a hand to each."



The eldest Oyster looked at him,
But never a word he said:
The eldest Oyster winked his eye,
And shook his heavy head--
Meaning to say he did not choose
To leave the oyster-bed.



But four young Oysters hurried up,
All eager for the treat:
Their coats were brushed, their faces washed,
Their shoes were clean and neat--
And this was odd, because, you know,
They hadn't any feet.



Four other Oysters followed them,
And yet another four;
And thick and fast they came at last,
And more, and more, and more--
All hopping through the frothy waves,
And scrambling to the shore.

The Walrus and the Carpenter
Walked on a mile or so,
And then they rested on a rock
Conveniently low:
And all the little Oysters stood
And waited in a row.



"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
Of cabbages--and kings--
And why the sea is boiling hot--
And whether pigs have wings."



"But wait a bit," the Oysters cried,
"Before we have our chat;
For some of us are out of breath,
And all of us are fat!"
"No hurry!" said the Carpenter.
They thanked him much for that.



"A loaf of bread," the Walrus said,
"Is what we chiefly need:
Pepper and vinegar besides
Are very good indeed--
Now if you're ready, Oysters dear,
We can begin to feed."



"But not on us!" the Oysters cried,
Turning a little blue.
"After such kindness, that would be
A dismal thing to do!"
"The night is fine," the Walrus said.
"Do you admire the view?



"It was so kind of you to come!
And you are very nice!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"Cut us another slice:
I wish you were not quite so deaf--
I've had to ask you twice!"



"It seems a shame," the Walrus said,
"To play them such a trick,
After we've brought them out so far,
And made them trot so quick!"
The Carpenter said nothing but
"The butter's spread too thick!"



"I weep for you," the Walrus said:
"I deeply sympathize."
With sobs and tears he sorted out
Those of the largest size,
Holding his pocket-handkerchief
Before his streaming eyes.



"O Oysters," said the Carpenter,
"You've had a pleasant run!
Shall we be trotting home again?'
But answer came there none--
And this was scarcely odd, because
They'd eaten every one.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Another Angel in Heaven

As I try to process how fleeting life can be, only a few feeble lyrics dribble out of me. Perhaps, some day, the song will be complete. But for now, there are only scratches on a page.

Now I lay me down to sleep.
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
because He took you before you could wake.
I don't understand why I'm still living,
even after you stopped breathing.
How does He decide which ones to take?

They say the best die young.
I'll just keep living the best I can each day.
They say the best die young,
so young.

MDW
daughter, sister, friend, classmate
Be strong, be blessed
8/17/11

We will always remember you, beautiful girl.